I'm having a hard time functioning. I can't focus. Breathing is hard. I know, not doubt or think, but know that he is talking to someone else. Three years, a ring, a life, my life, our life, and I am thinking about throwing it away because I don't trust him anymore. I don't know if that will change. I don't know how to get past this. I keep wondering if it's worth it. 

How can I compete? How did he think it would be ok? How did he think I wouldn't find out?