Again I'm stuck feeling like this. Wanting someone who doesn't know if he wants me. Why do I keep finding guys who are so damn hot and cold. Why did he do this. why did he make me open up and then not want me. i didn't want this. i didn't want to share my life or friends or child and he made me. he said he was different. that this was different. that he wanted to know everything. and now he does and i have nothing. again and again i have nothing. i didn't want him, I wasn't looking and then there he was. and now i am stuck feeling like this and there is nothing i can do to stop. why couldn't he of been like all the other guys? why did he have to be different? why couldn't i keep my mouth shut. why couldn't i keep my heart shut???