I told him i just wanted to be friends cause I can't deal with him not knowing what he wants. And that is mostly truth. I could love him if i let go but he's not ready to love me. he likes me but i'm not willing to spend another 7 years of my life waiting for someone to love me again. I just can't. i want to be able to love him and tell him. to know that he feels the same way. why couldn't i just leave it alone. i had to just keep picking at this. i had to just keep pushing untill i found out i was right. god i hate being right. i just want to cry again